So, I’m a deacon now…………………………………….
I and other deacons were ordained last Sunday in front of the entire church (Wahu and Kamande included).
We had to kneel and say vows, and stuff (it was funny… I haven’t knelt in so long, it felt weird).
There was also no lunch or special snacks afterwards, so that kind of sucked. And, I still had to teach Sunday School (a role that I take great pride in, but I thought they would give us a break, seeing as it was such a ‘special’ day).
But, I’m not too bothered by this.
Deaconhood suits me; I wear it well, if I do say so myself. Although, technically, it’s been less than a week, and I actually haven’t done anything deacony yet.
But, I am supposed to do something deacony this Sunday, and it’s making me a bit uncomfortable.
Okay, here goes…
Our church is hosting a super Harambee (fundraiser) this coming Sunday to raise funds for a bigger sanctuary (we congregate in a nursery school; I for one think it’s cute, but you know churches and their expansionist policies)
A very important guest will be in attendance, and I am very conflicted about his possible presence on Sunday.
You guessed it!
It’s our very own deputy president of the Republic. If you’re Kenyan, I’m sure you didn’t have to try that hard to figure it out. His name has become synonymous with church fundraisers lately, so, it’s pretty obvious I was referring to him.
Now, I am not trying to be sanctimonious or nothing, because even I have a past, and the church accepts my offering every single Sunday. So why should she react differently when it comes to the deputy president’s contribution?
Well, for starters, there’s the nagging possibility that the money he’s dishing out to all of these churches is part of his ill-gotten loot (he’s perceived to be one of the most corrupt individuals in the country;- where there’s smoke, there’s always fire, people).
I have heard some of the older congregants brush this off claiming that ‘everyone steals’. I don’t think that’s true, and even if it were, shouldn’t the Church be standing up against this vice.
Not accepting stolen public loot from corrupt politicians seems like a very great place to start, don’t you think?
I mean, how can the Kenyan religious fraternity claim to be admonishing corruption and at the same time be in the front lines when it comes to receiving ‘alleged’ proceeds of corruption?
I have raised this question in regards to the deputy president’s impending visit to our tiny church, and this is the response I keep receiving:
‘At least he is returning some of the money back to the public. He’s better than those who don’t return anything‘.
This is just sad.
We have grown so accustomed to being stolen from as a people that we applaud those who steal from our public coffers and ‘return’ a negligible proportion of it as charity.
And, it’s not like this charity comes without strings attached.
Of course, he’s doing this for political goodwill. He knows with the Church’s support, it’s much easier to win his desired political post. Otherwise, he would have contributed silently without all of this hullabaloo.
And, how can we criticize someone when we have already accepted money from him?
I feel like his (and other politicians’) donations have the potential to gag churches disabling them from ever criticizing bad governance.
Knowing all this, how can I possibly in good conscience, appear on Sunday and perform my deacon duties?
I am so troubled…so, so, so troubled!!
But, I hear there will be good food. I love food. Food always makes me happy, which can come in handy as I try to grapple with the realisation that we accepted *allegedly* stolen money to build a bigger sanctuary.
And I am also going to need a lot of good food because later on that evening, Arsenal will be up against Tottenham. It’s a scary game!!!
For those who follow me on Facebook, my new position might come as a surprise to you given the numerous anti-religious posts that I share on the platform.
Don’t be alarmed! I’m not leading a double life. I have very strong criticisms about Christianity as a religion, and I am very vocal about this at home and even in church.
But, I have learnt to separate the religion/theistic dogmas from the faith. I have learnt to focus on the faith aspects of the predominant religion that I have been exposed to, and mix these with my own inherent and acquired values.
In short, I have come up with my own faith, because I feel that’s a right for every human being- to choose or create your own beliefs (sounds ridiculous I know but it works, for me at least).
And what better way to change what I think is wrong with the church than infiltrating (I use this word very lightly) the institution and working on it from the inside. I feel that this is a more effective way of fixing the problem rather than just throwing stones at the institution.
Anyway, let’s see how Sunday goes…bye for now!!